2017 started out as probably the darkest year of my life. As we rang in the new year, I brought depression with me. It had made a home in my heart and mind. It had settled in and wasn’t going anywhere. So, I thought that if I took a trip to California to see old friends and watch the sunset sitting on the beach, that it would refill my cup and help ease the depression. It helped, but only for that weekend. It was a temporary fix to a serious situation. I suffered with it for a few more months. As I neared my breaking point in July, God stepped in. That’s when Pastor Terry spoke about strongholds. That’s when God told me that it was time to talk. As soon as I shared my story with my mom, I could feel the depression leave. It was an unwelcome guest and it was time for it to flee. If you are suffering from depression, find the root cause, talk to someone if you need to! I know now that if I didn’t open up and talk to my mom, I wouldn’t be here today. There are so many that suffer through depression and don’t make it to see other side.
The second half of 2017 turned out to be okay. There has been a lot of healing and growth. The healing isn’t over yet, that will be a lifelong process. I’ve learned a lot about me, about who I am and who I can become. This thing called life is not perfect by any means, so from here on out I choose to make the best of every situation. I choose to talk to people more when I need to. I choose to live my best life, not necessarily for others, but for me first. I’m choosing to leave whatever has held me back in 2017 and move forward in 2018. I believe I have found the purpose God has for my life and I am really looking forward to that purpose unfolding.
As this year comes to a close, I want to thank you for your prayers. Without them, I wouldn’t be here today. I pray God blesses you all in the coming year.
Happy New Year!